Last Five Months

So it has been about five months since me and my ex husband have called it quits you want to know my honest opinion about how I feel?  I’ll tell you, I feel great. You want to know why I feel great? Well I will tell you. I’m finally doing things because I want to. For some odd reason, I always worked really hard on trying to please other people or just try to take the easy way out of everything. SO if you had a get rich quick plan I wasn’t afraid to try it. I have to tell you, it’s been really nice finally being honest with myself.

  It’s been hard to come to terms with things. Knowing I wasn’t happy with majority of what was going on. It is very hard to explain to people when they ask what happened. People think I gave up to early, didn’t try hard or some other crap. To be straightforward, going through this process has showed me who my true friends our. It sucks at times but I am so thankful for this. I don’t have to explain myself. I have the right to feel the way I feel and handle things the way I want to handle them. Because I choose to not be with him anymore, I am a single mom.

  It’s a very tough job. Something that is a two person job minimum is now something I’m doing alone, well to a certain extent. My family is the biggest blessing I could have asked for, besides my child. Taking my daughter when I feel overwhelmed and doing many other things to help me out, helps out more than they can even imagine. So for that I will always before every grateful.

  It’s tough though, you always have this thought in your head that it will be like this forever. Being alone.  Having baggage is hard enough with life’s up’s and down’s but to add on having a child, it’s hard to think that anybody will want to date you. I found the solution to that though, well at least I found the solution for myself. Having the spare time that I have before I start school in the fall, I have been able to do a lot of soul searching and it has worked out tremendously. I stopped growing when I got into my relationship with my now ex husband and didn’t even realize it. So having all this free time, I have been able to find out what I like, what I enjoy, what I dislike and the things I actually want to accomplish in life. I have more confidence now about achieving goals that I have set for myself now, than I ever have before.  The only thing that sucks about being single is that I don’t get to cuddle. That’s it. Anything besides, that I can do with or without a man. It sucks that I had to involve a kid into this to realize something as simple as that, but she is my drive when I have those moments of doubt. Being a single mom is so hard, people look down upon you, your kid already has a strike against them with the chance of coming out crazy because their dad isn’t around, having to worry about people understanding how you became a single mom, it’s all very overwhelming. At the end of the day though, I wouldn’t change it for the world. The learning process is amazing and the reward after the struggle is spectacular.

  There are so many places, so many groups, so many blogs, so many resources you can go to so you don’t feel alone. Don’t feel like you have to stay with your husband or boyfriend only because you guys had a kid. It’s ok to realize that things aren’t going right. It’s ok to feel overwhelmed, everybody does. Find an outlet: Reading, writing, blogging, shopping, painting, anything. It is a tough job but it is so doable. Being a single mom is defiantly a journey that no one can prepare you for, but once you put your pride aside, taking the help that people don’t mind giving you and doing the tasks that you feel will be best for you and your child. Trust me it will get you so far in life in my opinion.

Awkward feeling

  So you know how there are those special moments, when your child will do something and your just so dang proud of them that all you want to do is share it to the world about how cool your child is, well this is not one of those moments for me. I’m still willing to share the moment though, well I should say moments.

  Now I don’t know if it’s just my child but she has this weird habit slash problem with growling at babies. For example, we are at the mall sitting enjoying food or what not, if a child who is in a stroller or walking or being carried or whatever passes by, she stops whatever she is doing to stare them down, follow them with her eyes and yell and do this weird growl thing. I by the way did not teach her that. It’s honestly pretty funny so that’s why I feel the need to share it but it is odd bottom-line. I thought the first couple times she was just practicing with her vocal cords but I noticed it with every child. It can actually be pretty much anywhere on the tv, at the store, looking at a magazine.

  It’s very cute though. She laughs afterwards. I’m pretty sure she just doesn’t know what to do when she see’s people the same height as her. It’s sad that growling is the first thing that comes to mind for her, but hey different strokes for different folks right? Also it’s a very good story to hold over her head when she is a teenager and I need to embarrass her in front of friends. Oh yeah it’s going down.

  Is there anything random that your child does that you have stored in your memory that you will hold over their head until they have their own children. Let me know below I love hearing kid stories so I know my child isn’t the only odd one.

Unnecessary things

Thinking is one of the biggest things that you do when your pregnant. What the baby will look like, what sleepless nights might feel like,what you want to eat, but most of all things you feel you really have to buy for the baby. Before i start this i would like to say this is only my opinion. Different strokes is for different folks. I would like the yelling to be held to a minimum please and thank you. I'm going to give you a top 10 list for both sides, so that should be fair, 10 things i loved and 10 things i could have lived without and a quick brief on why(this list is also for the first 6months of life).I'll start off with what i loved. In no particular order:

10: baby activity center: We put liyah in this when she was about i dont know five months and she loves it still and shes almost eight months old.It spins and allows her to jump so it keeps her busy for at least thirty minutes

9: boopy or the knock off: I was a breastfeeding mommy who had a c-section, so to have a pillow made specifically to help feed her was nice but when she is learning to sit up its also nice because you can prop the baby up. Its really nice to have.

8: Raffi: singable songs for the very young. Obviously they cant sing along with the music and im not always playing this but when its bath time for her it's nice background music. It helps them recognize that its bath time because its somthing similar and it just never hurts to be too kid friendly at such a young age

7: baby bath: Mind you my daughter will be 8months in a couple weeks. Shes not huge and i was kind of scared to put her in the bath tub. It helped so much because you dont have to worry about slipping and sliding it was nice.

6: bibs: when she use to just spit up all the time i didn't really care about bibs. When i started feeding her regular food is when it became all bad. Especially when she eats sweet potatoes. Why, i dont know but thats the food that she tend to get on her clothes. So breast milk just comes out in a wash real food, not so much so bibs are a must. Fancy ones aren't important either. I found its better to just get plain ones in different colors then ones that have words and sayings on them.

5: Nursing bra. I know this sounds silly specially if you have decided your breastfeeding. I didn't think it would matter that much so i actually never bought a nursing bra until i had a horrible first experience in public. I wont go into that but trust it comes in hand.

4: Nursing apron. Somebody actually gave it to me and i didn't think anything of it but it came into handy. You can always use a blanket it but its nice that it just hangs on your neck.

3: Johnson and Johnson bedtime bath: So lavender has something in it that helps soothe the body. It would knock  Jaliyah out in no time. I seriously have about a ten minute window from when i take her out the bath to when she needs to be in bed because she gets so dang tired. I love this stuff.

2: Plain white socks. Your probably thinking "ummm ok this is random" but its not, i promise. As cute as those little socks are that says" mommies champ" or some random saying. your better off with just plain white socks. Its seriously not even funny how fast and often your little one will lose that lovely sock and then your stuck without a matching pair.

1: Butt paste or diaper rash ointment.: Liyah didn't catch to many rashes so far yet but that actually works really well on there neck when it gets really icky because it traps milk and other weird stuff there.


Now for me to become a hater

10: Infant carseats. Now i know that you need these but dang it i hate em. So much work to carry my child in and out the car in. Thank heavens she no longer needs to be in it.

9: Non Cosco wipes: I know this may sound a little silly but the packaging for there wipes and the amount and the price just works way better for me then anything else out there. You get a pack of 900 that divide off into packs of 100 and it only cost 18 dollars before tax. When i use other wipes they dry out cost to much and not nearly enough comes in the back only like 64 or so.

8: Toys: ok i dont hate toys but i defiantly wouldn't buy any until your kid is actually born because you seriously don't know what they will like. You will save so much money. To be honest, the simpler the better. The toys that helped built motor skills, like the rings or something along those lines, work out way better then the stuff that lights up

7: Child developing books: we have like a love hate relationship. They help you learn but they freak you out so much because if your child isn't doing what they say they should be doing in the book you freak out.

6: shoes: They don't even use them, they cant walk, and depending on the shoe it can actually be bad for the baby because the weight of the shoe and all that good stuff.

5: Bouncer: Honestly you can have one or the other and the baby swing worked better then bouncer. if you want a chair i guess this ok kind of but its just a waste of space in my opinion

4: pullover sweatshirts:they;re cute on a baby but my daughter was so uncomfortable until she got older

3: diaper genie: In my opinion its just a lazy way of throwing away diapers. If you have a poopy diaper you can buy these little disposable baggies made for diapers at the dollar store that come in a pack of 75 or even better just take your trash out every night.

2: baby detergent: I am a person with very sensitive skin so this is one of the things i asked for because i thought my child would be the same. It didn't make a difference though so since she was about a month old shes been using regular detergent. Granted not all babies will be like this but it seriously wouldnt hurt to try. It can end up saving you alot of money.

1: Stilettos: I am the kind of girl who loves heels and loves looking cute but do you know how uncoordinated you are after you have a baby? ill tell you very. I feel like ill never be the same but my opinion to alternative is wedges or really cute boots. They help in the balance department, they're cute, and when the little one gets a little older and you have to start chasing them around its something that is much safer.


Hope you enjoyed my long count down list. feel free to list some products you liked or didn't like for that matter.

Cleaning never wins

So i have confession to make. Cleaning is NOT my forte. I had this wonderful idea that because i magically pushed out a baby that i was going to grow this love towards cleaning. I guess i was smoking crack when the idea came about because believe you me that is not the case. BUT i have to admit i have gotten better and for anybody who has the same i thought i would come up with a couple of things to maybe help.

Get containers or a storage unit for pretty much everything. The more divided things are for some reason the easier(at least for me) it is to store things and put them back. It doesn't really matter where you get the items.( Walmart, Target, Walgreens. Anywhere really) You don't have to get the plain ole' white and clear plastic stuff either, stores make them in so many colors now its not even funny.

My next helpful tip: Do small projects at a time. I always have the problem of getting overwhelmed because I always want to take on to many projects. Baby Steps in the key. Small projects and then put yourself on a time limit. Say Your going to clean off this shelf and then give yourself thirty minutes to do so. It's hard at first because you just want to get it all done but you'll start feeling accomplished because things are slowly but surely getting done.

Now this is probably going to sound silly saying because if it was easy everyone would be doing it but putting stuff away as you go. I kid you not it takes more time to leave something on the bed and have to clean it later compared to the 2seconds it will take you to just put it away. Semi on this subject I have learned that when i tend to not put things away right afterwards a great alternative is to do a "final sweep". Believe me that final sweep does wonders. After you have put the baby down just do that quick sweep around the house that will honestly take two minutes before you do anything else. Say you didnt get to the dishes or clean the bathroom completely atleast if some random person drops by the next morning your place doesn't look like a tornado of toys came crashing through your house.

Now mind you half of these idea's aren't completely mine. I had a lot of help from my lovely mother. I did want to share them though(the idea's). As simple as they are they have helped me tremendously. I know i also didn't touch on every subject but i hope i helped out atleast a tiny bit( or gave you a good laugh atleast)
Feel free to leave comments if you have any helpful hints.  

Bath time

So being a mother you get to experience odd things that will make great stories later in life. Today will be one of those times :-).
So i have to admit i still you the baby tub because im just so dang scared of my child being in the big bath tub but today i said to myself "aye she needs to be a big girl and start practicing in the big tub." So got everything together go the little kid music playing the the bathroom got the bubbles in the tub, sat her down. She was doing so good. Didn't look like she was going to fall. She seemed a little hesitant but who wouldn't be right? So im washing her, yay she discovers the bubbles. So cute shes going to play with bubbles...so i thought. This little girl took it to herself to eat the bubbles and drink the water. In the middle of me washing her hair on top of that..im trying to rinse her hair out but she moves and has water dripping down her face because she wants to lean forward so she can get to her hand quicker so she can suck the crap out of it because according to her the bubbles are like the best invention of food ever. So i take her out we head to the bedroom. I put her on the bed and she just has this biggest grin in the world like she had the best time ever. As long as she doesn't die from bubble poisoning im ok too

Liyah's first halloween

Even though liyah is only three months old I, for some odd reason had high hope for her for her first halloween experience. In my mind I was going to take her out to about five house get some cute pictures of her holding her halloween bag and then go home pass out candy while i ate hers. Sadly that isn't what happened. She defiantly didn't take a nap for some reason that day so when it came time to start getting her ready she was really cranky and over all just being a really big booger. I did get to take pictures but even that was too much for her because after 10minutes she passed out. 

                                             I was a 80's diva while she represented for the 70's

This is my brother and sister taking her trick or treating for me. It counts as trick or treating even if its at our own house right?

This is what happens to someone when they work so hard to take pictures.You just pass out. 

So after feeling sad that she wasn't going to make it outside. I decided not to dwell on it because I atleast got lovely pictures. So my sister and her friends were still getting ready to go out, they started taking pictures and i said to myself "hey im dressed up too i want so more pictures :-)". So these next pictures Liyah is totally knocked out in but i really wanted to be part of the crowd. You might wonder " Yvonne why didn't you put the poor baby down" and i will simply say "Do you want to deal with a cranky baby". My daughter likes to stay in the same position she falls asleep in. For example if your holding her and you try to put her down on the bed or something she will wake up five minutes later. So with that being sad i make sure shes were i want her to be when she passes out. 

From left to right: Alexis who is a hip hop dancer, Jessica who is a bumble bee and well you already know who I am. These our my little sisters. I know I know Im short don't judge me :-). 

                     C.J was farmer Joe. Why Alexis was all the way in no mans land,only she knows.

The extra people in this picture are my sisters friends. Why my sister insisted on wearing those boots only jesus could tell you. 

I love these pictures though because out of all the moving around I did and the laughter that was going on, this little girl was passed out and did not wake up until i decided to put her down. She doesn't realize that shes not very light at all. 

Halloween was very fun for me though. I stayed home with my mom and step dad and played Texas holdem passed out candy to little kids who were adorable. I need to add that there actually weren't that many kids for us this year,which was odd. I know my halloween night might not have sound that fun to some of you but it was a very nice night for me. Something about being a mommy has made me enjoy simple things more. I didn't care about not going to any parties or how uncool it sounded for hanging out with my parents. I was just happy i have pictures for Jaliyah so that when shes old she can look back and smile on. Something i know   I know I won't be doing for years to come is spending tons of money on costumes. Her outfit cost me like $5.00 and she looked fabulous in my opinion. There is no need to spend tons of money on at outfit thats only going to be worn for one day.

Yvonne

The great adventure of breastfeeding

So while your pregnant one of the big things you think about, well the big thing that i thought about was whether or not i will breastfeeding. I new that i was trying to go back to work after i had the baby but only part time. I was so torn because I wanted what was best for her so i wanted to breastfeed, but i new that if i bottled fed her it would be easier to go back to work. At the end of the day i went with what was best for the baby by deciding to breastfeed her. My idea was to atleast breastfeed for a month and try to get her use to formula the second month so we would 1) give her the nutrition that she needs for atleast a little bit of time and 2) i would be able to have other people watch her while i went back to work. What i didn't think about was whether or not my daughter would actually follow that plan. I don't know about your guys children or if you even have any but my child loves not going along with what i have planned and shes only three months, who knows whats going to happen when shes older. 
So breastfeeding isn't actually all that bad in my opinion. You seriously give your baby everything she needs in her food and you save so much money. You lose weight at a faster pace because the baby is just taking pretty much everything you eat, just like when you were pregnant. For me it didn't necessarily hurt really it was awkward at first and there was like a little bit of stinging involved but honestly that pain only last for a good week or so and dealing with labor and being pregnant was worse then that pain. The other good part for breastfeeding is at night time its so much easier to stick a boob in your child's mouth rather then getting up and trying to make a bottle. 
If you have the idea of doing half and half,meaning half breast milk half formula let me tell you now its way harder then the books lead you to believe. I tried with Jaliyah and let me tell you, that was not fun one bit. She gave me the worst stinky face i have ever seen in my life.and i have never seen my child scream the way she did when that formula hit her tongue. She was so use to what i was feeding her and i honestly didn't think it would be such a big deal. It was hard for me to try and feed her formula because deep down i new it wasn't any good for her. 
The downside about breastfeeding is trying to do this around company or in public. I'm not even going to lie after you have 20 thousand people in your crouch to help you deliver your child pulling your boob out in front of people doesn't really bother you. The thing that sucks is the people around you or the public. Luckily i have a very supportive family and a good support group so pulling out the boob does not faze them one bit. Its just annoying because people look at you funny if you want to feed your child like your doing something disgusting. It makes me mad. So instead of joying my time out i have to go put myself in the car or stay in a room by myself and its horrible and annoying. Good thing is that Washington state and maybe in other states made a law were you are allowed to breastfeed and nobody can do anything about it. No one can tell you to cover up and no one can kick you out for feeding or make you go to the bathroom or some other odd place.




Basically when its all said and done. Do your researcher and make sure you always try to do whats best for your child. There is always pro's and con's to everything. I can tell you that i love the decision that i made. Me and Liyah have the best bond i could ask for . Yes it takes longer to do things at time but i personally would rather take longer running errands or something along those lines then not try to breastfeed my child and give her the best that i can give her. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong if you can't breastfeed but in my eyes you should try or at least think about trying.






Yvonne

First week home

Being home for the first week was very scary,cool,and overall overwhelming. Thank goodness my was there to help me and my husband. I honestly don't know i would have done without her there. She made sure I had food, the house was kept up, and any questions i had about the baby she was there to answer. I loved it. It's scary when you have never had a kid because all you think about is how you don't want to break them or mess up. I was scared to do everything with liyah, even down to how to give her a sponge bath. I remember the first time i was actually left alone with her. Jason was at work and my mom was heading back home because she hadn't seen her husband in like a week. I actually cried. I was so scared. I had a c-section and couldn't do a lot. I wasn't allowed to even lift anything that is heavier then liyah. I was so nervous that something was going to happen and i wouldn't be able to take care of it. I really acted like i was ok but i was just so terrified. I can't even express how frightened i was. 
Having Liyah caused me to have so much more respect for single mothers. It's hard already when you have a spouse and a mother who helps out so much. I can't even imagine what it would be like doing this on my own. I want to really thank everybody who was there that supported me and help me get through a very new experience in my life. My close friends and family did a amazing job. When that first week was up everything just  kind of came to me. I actually feel really confident in my parenting skills this far. Don't get me wrong I still ask for  tons of advice but i have this little voice in my head that tells me what i should be doing and what i shouldn't be doing.
Since I'm past that first week im more at ease. The fact that im recovered from my c-section also helps a lot. My advice to new mothers or mothers to be.; don't ever feel afraid to ask for help. You honestly can't do everything by yourself and there is nothing wrong with feeling overwhelmed. Some things come naturally and other things are hard to understand its like someone is speaking German to you. Just breathe and know that its ok to make mistakes and that its ok to not actually know what your doing. As long as your doing the best you can and giving your child as much love and attention that your baby needs you should be well off, well hopefully.

First week home

Labor

Labor

Now i know every mom has their own labor story, but since this is my blog i thought it would only be right if i told MY story hehe yay.
So the baby was due August 2nd but of course she didn't come on time. The third of August came along and we had a doctors appointment. When I got checked to see how far along i was,it was exposed that i was already 3cm. It was exciting to find out because i thought i was having braxton hicks but it was actual contractions. So since i was dilated and i was over due my doctor thought it would be a bright idea to scrap my cervix. Let me tell you it didn't feel good. After that point i was having contractions, granted it didn't hurt in the beginning it was exciting to know i was in labor. 
My mom decided to come over the next day and start her stay so that when Jason was at work i wouldn't be home alone. On the third i was having contractions and they were about 8minutes apart they were getting a little a little bit more painful but i was still able to go to sleep peacefully. So the 4th comes around and my mom tells me that she wants me to have this baby so she takes me to the mall so i can walk around and she will hopefully pop out. Her idea did work kind of. My contractions by the end of that trip were coming a little harder which was a mix of emotions, half exciting the other half extremely nervous. Because I was in labor i decided not to eat because i heard you can throw up and all that good stuff and i didn't want to do any of that.  So by the end of the mall trip all i had was a piece of toast and a smoothie. The day was starting to come to a close and there was still no baby and my contractions were getting stronger. I was at 6minutes apart and i was just waiting until it finally made it down to 3minutes apart. Sadly that never came, i went through the whole night with really bad contractions that i maintained very well, but because they were so strong in my opinion i couldn't get myself to fall asleep. My mom and I spent all night trying to time them but the contractions would never become consistent or anything which was very frustrating. Finally 6:40am came along and i decided that i was just going to go in and just pray that they don't send me home.
When i got to the hospital i was in triage for about 20minutes,they checked the vitals and found out I was 5cm  dilated. I was so excited to find that out and one of the first questions out my mouth was "When can I get some drugs." Luckily,because i was dilated i was allowed to have them whenever I wanted them. My goal was to go as long as i could with out them so i took a narcotic that eased the pain first but didnt take it way completely and was able to doze off for about 20minutes or so. It started to wear off so then i decided to try the jetted tub which was super relaxing not painless but it also eased the pain. I was in there for a good hour. Let me tell you I wish i had one of those tubs at my house.

When i got out of the tub i got checked to see how far i was. I was 6 almost 7cm dilated which was exciting because to me this was going by very fast. So thats when i decided to get an epidural because since i was moving alone so swiftly and my water hadn't broken yet the nurse wanted me to be nice and drugged up so i wouldn't feel anything. She was my favorite. I was expecting the big needle in my back to hurt like crazy like everyone was talking about, but to be honest being in labor for so long was nothing compared to that feeling. So by the time i got the epidural it was like one o'clock i think. I just know i had been at the hospital for awhile already. After i finally got the medication in my system it was so nice to relax. I hadn't really had any sleep and if i dosed off it would only be for about 20minutes if that at a time. I had tons of family in the room with me and in the waiting room, It was really nice having all the support i was having. So i was moving pretty quickly when it came to dilating but when i got dilated at 9cm for some reason i couldn't get past that point. After waiting and waiting and waiting the doctor finally told me i had to get a c-section. The reason was because her head was so low that she was resting on my cervix and made it swollen making it harder for it to open up. I'm not even going to lie to you guys. I cried my eyes out. I had been in labor going on two days, it was nine or ten o'clock by the time they wanted to share this kind of news with me. I just have heard that women who get c-sections have a very hard time recovering and the idea of not being able to take care of my baby scared the living daylights out of me. After the doctor cracked a few jokes and my mom and husband made me feel better and reassured me that i wasn't being a failure i finally got ready for the procedure. They unhooked the good old drugs and pushed me down to the delivery room. I was so scared, I didn't know what to expect. I'm so thankful i had Jason by my side. I did NOT want to be in there without him. That was a horrible experience. They had me strapped down with no medication in my system yet because the doctor had to go run off and help somebody else first oh my geeze. The nurses were talking about shoes and stuff i didn't really care to hear about all i wanted was this pain to stop. So finally after the dotor was found we finally got this party started. They were giving me some kind of drug that was suppose to make me numb from the stomach down but because i didn't have any food in my system it made me through up a tad bit, which let me tell you is very hard to do when your legs are strapped down and you can barely turn to the side to do. So  after 30 thousand  attempts to makes sure i was numb, my child's delivery was under way. What ever drug i was on put me out of it so much oh my geeze. I tried to focus on Jason so much but my eyes couldn't really stay open. After about 15-20minutes you hear this baby start crying and I see Jason shoot up out of his seat. The nurse told me that the baby was finally hear and the first thing that came out my mouth was "It's still a girl right?" When i was pregnant i had a fear that i bought all this girl stuff and i would end up having a boy even though they told me i was having a girl. Anywho, i started crying after that comment. I just couldn't believe she was actually here. I couldn't hold her like i wanted to so the pictures we took we very awkward.  

Thats the best we could get. So you would think i would be very concerned about my child but the next question i asked the nurse when heading back to the room was "So can i eat now?" You guys just don't understand how hungry i was. Jaliyah Eileen Thomas was not born unitl 10:47pm. I went through two days of labor with hardly any food i was starving. It took a good 30minutes before the family was allowed into the room. I couldn't believe she was here or how pasty white she was, or how much hair she had. It was amazing jason didn't know what to do with himself, i loved it. The hospital was great, tons of family came to visit and friends also. It was all a blur i really tried to catch up on sleep but was hard with all the people who wanted to talk to me. It was annoying at time..the nurses coming in every hour and checking up on here and all the people trying to make me feel paper work out at like 8:30 in the morning. Because i was recovering so well i actually got to go home a tad bit early which was nice because i really wanted to be home, I hated just sitting in a bed all day with nothing really to do. We got there 7:00am Thursday Morning and was able to leave Sunday afternoon.




Yvonne

Trying something new

Liyah doing her kodak smile :-)

So this is defiantly something new that I'm trying. I love expressing myself and giving my two cents out to whoever will listen,so i don't know why the idea of writing a blog didn't come to me earlier. I want to make this blog so that i can express my journey through motherhood :-). I have so many stories and experience that i want to express and share, but i know that i cant put everything on my facebook.I want to encourage other moms that i know to express themselves also about similar things i might write about or to even start their own blog. Feel free to leave comments,advice,concerns,anything. I love hearing other peoples opinion, especially when its useful.






Yvonne